Confused, confused.

Ah... I am planning to go to a convention on 14th-17th July in Finland. Today I got to know that my family is planning to have a reunion on the 16th. Dad said he wouldn't stop me from going to Finland... but it still makes me contemplate if I should stay at home and meet relatives whom I have never seen before in my life and get to know them. I'm not sure what to do about that. And damn for there being no discounts for ship tickets on summer.

The reality that the results for university are coming soon-ish and otherwise I don't actually have much of a plan what I will be doing is catching up to me. Seems I may have to live in the dorms even. Oh well... Some hours ago I submitted a second application to the university of Tartu. The first one was for German and its literature, the second one for Classical Philology. Now I can wait and see if I got a place payed by the state. My language state exams turned out great, so I got some hope at least, pffff.

I feel like making a cosplay for Animecon (I think it is called like that) but unless I can think of something that wouldn't require too much money... (and time too actually) I probably will be unable to. Ah.

Nevertheless, got to stay positive. Everything will have to work out in some way eventually.

Just... ugh....

My computer screen has gotten really horrible... Actually... it is sorta the back-up screen as the other one refused to turn on at some point...

I am not amused. One can only stare so long at something like that:

I don't know how long I have to bear that. I hope that at least by autumn I will be able to get a laptop. Oh well... until that I've got to find other things to entertain me as my computer makes me want to stay away from it.

Graduation

Now I've officially graduated from secondary school. Next is time to submit exam results to Tartu University and waiting for the final results.

Graduation day went better than expected. I'm quite content and proud too. Considering I had sewn the dress and petticoat myself. Not only that, I did my hair and make up, choose my shoes and various accessories. The result is just ah~

Now to pictures, which are done by Ingrid.

That's me shortly after having graduated and where I am still at the culture centre Kannel with flowers and... uh... presents.

At home here. Dress still not visible.

Finally full view of the dress.

A close-up of my hair.

Wall of my room. :'D

Time to plant a tree. It's an elm by the way.

Still planting the tree.

Heave-ho!

Almost there.

Nearly like an umbrella only not really.

Wholly the day was quite nice. Waking up early when I had gone to sleep at 2 in the morning the previous night as I had been finishing up my dress and decided to quickly sew a second petticoat. But not uploading pictures of that right now. Then as I was preparing myself in the morning suddenly getting told by my dad that I am supposed to plant a tree on that day.

Had to be at Kannel at least 15 minutes before everything started. Got there early enough. Then the ceremony, going to stage for a moment like everyone else. And then the masses of people in the foyer. Thanks weather.... It was really difficult to move around there.... And then imagine little me with all these balloons. Heh. But I found my friends there nevertheless. Ingrid and Kaili came to eat hang around my place afterwards.

The day ended with going to our class' graduation party. It was okay, I guess. Nothing bad happened and I got home just fine.

I am the most proud over my dress though. I didn't actually have patterns for it so I took a shirt pattern as a base and transformed it until it worked as a dress. A dress that I wanted to make. The only thing for what I really looked up a tutorial was the petticoat.

That's how I had planned it to look.

And then sewing everything by myself. With an old sewing machine. By old I mean old. It isn't an electrical sewing machine so... lots of work. Took me a bit more than a week... I did get distracted a few times but... I really did ignore my computer that slow thing the whole time. That meant not talking to Alex. God... I missed talking to him sooooooo much. s;dflsakfkdsjgdksljas;slfksfdfIlovehimlots. I am happy that I am not so busy anymore.

That's all for now.

Holding My Eyes Wise Open

Working mainly on sewing for several days now (and getting distracted by other things occasionally). I've made progress though. :'D Stuff mainly needs to be properly sewn together now, details to be added and then it would be finished~ (It actually sounds a lot easier than it actually is.) And then comes sewing the petticoat too. (Because I am stupid like that at times.) Going to buy tulle for it soon.

Ah, been awake for the whole night now. I get more work done when I am sort of sleepy/tired, haha. No wonder I've turned completely nocturnal. I hope I manage to be like an average human being with my sleep schedule soon again.

I will be going to Tartu on Saturday. I still have to buy heels that go with my graduation dress. :I

It's rainy outside and chilly... Good weather for sewing but not great for going to town with my bicycle. Oh wells.

The exam results have slowly started to come. 92 points on English, oh yeah~ :'D I've got my Math result too but that us nothing really note worthy... *cough* But I am really waiting for my German and Essay results now. ;A;

I'm feeling partly stressed and lonesome. As I plan to avoid msn until I have finished my dress... Otherwise I am scared I get too distracted and end up chatting instead of sewing... ;w; Especially when considering I am being in an other room when sewing... And I don't have a laptop that I could just easily drag with me. And I still don't have a clue when my old old computer will be replaced. (I've had it for umm... at least 7 years now?)

//End random rant

If my graduation stuff has passed I try to actually make some more interesting entries here.

But it is about time I start moving myself to town now.

Nocturnal

All my exams are done by now. Still don't know the results of any of them (besides the oral exams of English and German which I both aced). I assume I didn't at least fail any, pfff.

Why do I always end up doing various stuff when I am tired and don't do nothing at all when I am not? Ugh..

I got a sudden urge to paint something. This two things are the results of my experimenting. Not fully happy how they turned out but oh well...

I'd like to paint more. Can't really do that before I have gotten more white acrylic colour, which I won't be able to get any any time soon. *sighs*

It's about time I went to bed...